| Time to post again |
[Jul. 28th, 2004|09:59 pm] |
Well well well, whats going on in the life of Josh right now? Not much - work, work and well work. I get health insurance on August 1st, yeah for me! I'm working my butt off to get some cash before school, but I should be getting one hell of a refund check and if I don't, hell will be raised until I get my damned money.
I'm working a lot, at Stadium and Campus and I'm actually enjoying it. I'm tired a lot, but when school starts I think it'll keep me going. I can't wait for the middle of August. Everyone will be coming back, good times will be had. I'm really excited to see everyone again. I bought some cds today. Marvin Gaye, Al Greene, some classical stuff, Faithless and Modest Mouse and I need to say thank you to Annie for helping me come up with my must get list. Thanks hun!
I finished Angels and Demons, still haven't finished Catch-22 but I'm thinking about starting either Les Mis or Candide, I dunno which. Lately I've been having issues with faith again. I think its cause of Angels and Demons, the book really hits home with spirituality and the role it plays in modern day man. I'm glad to know I'm not the only one with issues with God and the present. Its like, I want to believe, but why should I? I know why people had gods before, to explain stuff, but we have science now to explain a majority of our questions. I want God, I want to believe, but for some reason I always have doubts. Maybe I should read the Bible - there's a novel idea.
Well I'm exhausted and need to get to bed. Night. |
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| Ok, trying to get everything together |
[Jul. 15th, 2004|12:19 am] |
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So we got back from Denver at 11 or so last night. I had to work at 8am today. Needless to say I've been doing laundry and cleaning my stuff up since I've been home.
So, I'm very inspired at the time being. NLC was awesome, Denver was awesome and I'm ready for school. Why?
I'm now planning on staying for a full 5th year. Why would I do that? I'm going to run for either state VP or president of PBL or North Central Region VP - a national office.
So I'm psyched about PBL and I'm ready to get stuff rolling on PSP. Its amazing how I can use information from one and apply it to the other.
Lets see - I'm paying bills, getting stuff organized, e-mailing people, and uhh...lots of other stuff. Sam called me so I have his number now. Still haven't heard from Meghean or Jessica since they've left town. I'm just drained and exhausted.
Ok, time to hang up my last load of laundry from the trip and then pass out. |
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[Jul. 15th, 2004|12:16 am] |
You'd carve them up with your chainsaw. I like your
style, you show much promise. Join me?
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I knew it - I pack a chainsaw What? a chainsaw, what! a motherfucking Chainsaw!
Go Edgar go. |
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| I'm in Denver |
[Jul. 10th, 2004|07:53 am] |
We (Zac, Rachel, and I) left Columbia on Thursday to head to Denver. Along the way we stopped in Warrensburg to pick up Kelly! So Kansas is about worthless. It took us 5-6 hours to drive through and it sucked all the way. Once we got to Colorado things started looking "up" for us. I'm finally used to the altitude, though it did take a while (a day and a half) for me to get adjusted.
Yesterday was pretty fun, we just sort've explored downtown Denver, which is pretty cool. Everything is within a few blocks of the hotel and so we checked out some restaurants and shops along the way. Last night was the opening session. That wasn't to bad, kinda boring but then again a lot of those are. The keynote speaker kinda sucked too, he never really spoke to the audience, it was his make-believe family.
After all that, we had our state meeting. I'm convinced more than ever now that our State Pres. is a moron, but I think some good came of the meeting. Then I started to study, which lasted a whole 30 minutes. I've been reviewing the script and will have it down by the time we perform - I hope.
Now I'm just killing time till the tests. Parli then Hospitality Management. I'd like to do awesome in both but I'm really hoping to nail the Hospitality Management test and get in the top 10 or so. But now I gotta run so wish me good luck and I'll keep you updated as to what is happening. |
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| Really quick |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|11:57 pm] |
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| | Dashboard Confessional - Screaming Infedelities | ] |
I love the internet. I'm a net junkie, hahaha. Time to shoot up on e-mail and message boards, blah!
I got my "bill" from Mizzou. Its a 4000 credit - WOO so by the time books are paid for it'll be like 3500 unless I get lucky. Whats this mean? One of my monster credit card bills is going to be nada in late August/early September!
I've realized that this summer I've been majorly scrubbing out. I'm for the most part broke, though thats changing, but I don't have the cash or the time to go get new clothes, stuff, etc. So my goal is to save up a nice little bundle of cash and do get a hell of a lot of new clothes for school, WOO! Or actually it'll be a little bit then, a little bit a few weeks later, and so on. This is my "last year" of school so I need to really step it up a notch.
Also I'm planning on posting some more pieces up here - some are rather personal, but the instances for them are long past and everything is for the most part resolved.
Well I have to be up in 3 and a 1/2 hours for Truck, yeah me! So I'm going back to bed.
Night |
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| Massive updatage |
[Jun. 29th, 2004|12:05 am] |
OOOHhhhh - K
I am doing a massive 2 week catching up to do post. WOO!
Since I don't remember much of what happened the week after I last posted I'll just say that I've been working an insane amount of time. I went home that weekend and hung out with some friends and it was fun and good times. I rode around with Danielle and then saw Zach and Bryan. Some of us went swimming at the little place Zach knows and it was all in all a fun time. My Uncle finally took me out to eat for my birthday - only like 4 months late but it was at the new Applebbee's and it was fun. Then I came home and worked my butt off. I ended up coming home on that Friday for Mindy's funeral. That was a rough few days for a lot of folks and I was glad that I could help console some of them. Its a shame she was taken from us at such a young age and when she had so much to offer to the world. Friday was hard, full of emotions but I think it helped her family to know that we were there. This week so far has been full of work too. I worked Sunday night, 12 hours today, 9 hours tomorrow, 9 hours on Wednesday and then "normal" hours for the rest of the week. Then I'm going home Friday - Sunday night/possibly Monday morning.
Some personal updates - as nerdy as it can sound, I've really gotten back into RP, I'm reading some good poetry books, I've been writing some too and things seem to be going pretty smoothly for me at the moment.
Ok, its late and I need to get up early in the AM so I'm getting off of here and going to bed. To everyone who reads this and cares and whom I haven't seen in a long while - I miss you all and can't wait to see you in the fall. Tracy I'll see you in Denver hopefully!!!!
YEAH and WOO! |
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| So |
[Jun. 13th, 2004|07:32 pm] |
Well, ever since I've been a little kid I've had this weird fascination with the military. I think a lot of boys have it when they are little kids though. Well - its kept nagging at me every so often and now its coming back up again, but this time things are a little different. I'm graduated in 3 more semesters, 18 months roughly. From there I can go on and work in a restaurant, get my Masters in Hospitality Management and then go to Culinary school to be a Chef and open up my own restaurant OR I can go into the military and do something that has absolutely nothing to do with my degree. (It could, but if I go in I"m not going to be a Marine chef, unless they'll pay for a real culinary school)
So I looked into some websites and have somewhat ranked them in an order, Marines, AirForce, Army and Navy. The cool thing is I can apply to be an Officer since I'll have graduated, which more than rules because then I get a lot more benefits, prestige, and when I get out (if I do?) then its more than kickass on the resume.
We'll see how this will go and if I do talk to a recruiter or anything like that. Who knows? |
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| Are you mad at me? |
[Jun. 9th, 2004|11:34 pm] |
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Everyone is asking me that question. Are you mad at me? Have I turned into some monster? Some hate-filled being that only wishes to poke and prod those into submission by asking me this one small question? I can't stand it, it grates on my nerves so unbelievably bad and then to top it off comes the I'm sorries. Its like a horrid cycle I can't get myself out of around and around and around I go.
Its driving me crazy - if I'm mad at you, trust me you'll know. Then again people seem to think I'm mad at them all the time. Yes I'm saying People as in "more than one person" so no one particular person need feel singled out because they're plenty of you asking me this question.
Sometimes I feel like I"m at the edge and ready to snap, ready to hide in my own little world, ready to tell everyone and everything to fuck off. Thats not me though, but it is who I have turned out to be.
I look back and I miss very particular things about me, things worn away by time, by experiences and by growing up. I hate who I've become sometimes and then others I feel so proud of what I've accomplished. I am unhappy with myself, yet I don't do anything to fix it or if I try to, it makes me feel worse off than I did before.
I try to cut strings and then I mend them. I try to get back in touch with people, I try to be honest and I try to be me but then I look at myself and wonder, "who am I?" I try to define myself and I can't and it bothers me. Then when I look at those around me constantly I'm bombarded with that cursed question - Are you mad at me.
That must define me then right? Am I an angry person? Do I rub people the wrong way? What is it that makes people constantly ask me this question and then feel the need to continuely apologize for nothing?????
I'm tired and I'm hot and I'm whining, but I'm fed up with it. So NO I am not mad at YOU, but I am getting very very ANGRY and FRUSTRATED at EVERYTHING. |
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| To all those who are from Stafford and read this |
[Jun. 5th, 2004|10:20 am] |
Caitlin says hi. She's in Florence and will be headed to Venice Monday. What a lucky girl - I WANNA GO TO VENICE.
She also says she found a pimps and hoes dress that looked very nice on her, but she didn't get it. That and Italian Gelato is much better than the kind here in Columbia.
On a non-Caitlin sidenote - I say hi to all of my former residents as well! E-mail or call me if you're ever in town and bored. I MISS YOU GUYS! |
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| Oh yeah |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|02:23 am] |
By the way, I didn't write any tonight - though I did find a much better community to post my stuff at. Blueline just never really gave anything to the few things I posted, very clickesh.
I did kick ass at Day of Defeat and I might just invest in one of the newer WW2-ish games though I don't know which one.
Now I'm really going to bed. |
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| Summer time is so weird for me |
[Jun. 1st, 2004|02:18 am] |
It is - really. My appetite goes out the door, especially when its incredibly hot so then I come close to starving myself until I need to eat but then it hurts to even think about food. Food has been on my mind a lot lately. Option number 2 currently for when I graduate is to rack up even MORE debt and go to Culinary school. I watched Iron Chef American tonight and its amazing how inspiring these people's stories are.
What else? Oh yeah, my sleep schedule gets all screwed up because I stay up late like I am now doing nothing and then I have to get up early to be at work. I'm gonna get like 5-6 hours of sleep right now, lets see how close I cut it.
I also get restless and bored easy. I remember waiting for hours when I was a little kid for Matt and John so I could go play with them. I'd ride my bike by their house to see if they were home from wherever and then when I saw it I would ride home, call them and then ride back. I was such a dork. Now though I'm bigger and can drive, WOO! I can't wait for the baseball game this weekend and I need to go to St. Louis sometime.
I dunno, I'm bored and kinda hungry but there isn't anything quick and easy to make and I really should get to bed. I get to work tomorrow - WOO! that means mo money mo money mo money! |
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| Not much going on |
[May. 31st, 2004|07:09 pm] |
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I worked my butt off last week. I pulled in like 41 hours or something, go me! Now I've had 2 days off, no one is around and I am bored out of my mind. I tried going back to chat to RP some and that was like an utter failure - sometimes I think I should just give it up, and then I realize I basically have, so whatever with that. Plus I do have WTO which is more than enough for me. I like writing there, I like the support everyone gives to one another, its just a good place to be creative. A friend of mine is leaving there, she knows how I feel about that, but we're still going to stay in touch which is awesome! Ayenee.org is getting ready to switch over to the new boards and so I'm fulfilling my mod duties there, though it seems I mod the dead boards, but oh well.
I've been downloading stuff, sampling new music and the like. There's a few artist I might look into now. I look back on the past 2 days and I really have done much at all. Played some Soul Caliber, cleaned the room, did some dishes cause I cooked myself some burritos (I made them - not the microwave kind). They were damned tasty too. Lets see, I did some laundry and then just did stuff on the net, either WTO or Ayenee or the random website thing. Day of Defeat is back and going pretty strong so thats helping pass the time as well.
I've been waiting too. I sent an e-mail like a week ago and haven't heard anything back yet. Its pure agony, waiting and waiting, wondering what she thinks and all that jazz. Then to top it off, I've started talking to this girl from the net. She's really cool, gonna go to the Ag School, works in CoMo, likes Parli and we seemed to get along pretty well. So thats been a definate plus! Everyone up here is gone, except for Seth, but I don't want to constantly bug him to do stuff and I feel like I have been.
I can't wait till tomorrow so I can work. I feel myself slipping into one of my slumps and if I work then I'll have to be at least fake happy and at best really happy so its a win win situation. I need to get some books to read and I really should try writing some. I've had all weekend and haven't even touched my notebook. I'm such a loser!
I did just get done talking to Caitlin. She's with Adam for the day and then she's off to Italy. I miss everyone, like really bad. Adam, Caitlin, Mike, Sean, Scott, Zack, Matt, Mason, Ryan, Peggy, Jenny and even Emily. Oh and Drew, how could I forget Drew? My residents or rather my ex-residents are a good group of people and I'm glad their my friends, even if I won't get to talk or see them really until the fall.
Well I'm gonna go get something to eat - if anywhere is open. Then maybe I'll write some tonight. Doubt it but you never know. |
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| Chicago |
[May. 21st, 2004|09:48 pm] |
I'm in Chicago now, and well its breath-taking to say the least. I'm surrounded by skyscrapers and its getting ready to storm. Lightning flashes light up windows or appear between buildings and the thunder just echoes through the concrete forest of the city. Off in the distance I hear the wail of some sirens, a firetruck or a police car but its somewhat comforting to hear it. The window is open on my hotel room on the 31st floor. I can hear the wind as it strolls by. Its dark cause its night, but the city is aglow with lights of buildings and the street. Around the corner a man is playing a saxophone.
This is by far a very intense trip and I've only been here for like 2 hours now. Tomorrow I go to the Salute to Excellence thing and then Sunday the show. Turns out that I can stay a little later on Sunday so I'm going to try to meet up with Lesa, a manager JB wants me to meet.
I'm just killing time. I'm going to go out with Colleen, she's gonna show me the town, storm or no storm since tonight will probably be the only night I feel up to going out on - unless tomorrow night is rather easy. |
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| I'm in Clinton |
[May. 19th, 2004|11:19 am] |
Oh yes, the Josh man is back in Clinton! Woo.
Its not to bad, I've spent some time with Danielle and Meghean. I still want to go beat the crap out of one particular ass - but maybe he'll get the message that he's not wanted anymore and leave certain people alone. I'm meeting Meghean for lunch and then watching a movie with Danielle I think. I'm going to call Jessica and see if she wants to do something (she'd better) hopefully with Angie too!
I've done some errands, ran around, and now I'm just waiting for lunch time to roll around. I'm excited about Chicago, though I'm afraid Dr. Gaiko will flip out cause I'm taking a "nice suit" instead of a tux. I don't have the cash to go get a tux and to be honest, why would I get one?
Its nice to be home, if only for a day or so. I might go back to Columbia tonight (more than likely unless I'm having a super time) or possibly in the early AM tomorrow since I gotta work. I'm taking my dad's TV back with me along with a little table from his house. To bad we didn't save the couches and other tables and stuff back when we left the house - I sure could use them now, but oh well.
I'm planning on going and leaving some flowers for Memorial Day. I know its early but its as good as I can for them. Well time to go - I'll update this when I get home from Chicago. |
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| So.... |
[May. 15th, 2004|05:53 pm] |
Once again, its been a long while since I've posted. This week was finals week so between studying last weekend, test taking on Monday, sorrow Monday night and working all the rest of the week, plus moving into the duplex this weekend I haven't had much time to do much else than what I needed to do.
So, its graduation, Stafford is pretty much empty, Fletcher house is empty. My floor is gone for the year. Through the ups and downs its been fun and a pain, I've met some friends and hopefully touched someone's life. I was walking the hall while waiting for Adam to change and it was sad - I was thinking of a memory for each room, each resident and I realized that I was missing a few residents. Like I couldn't think of anything in the past year that I had done with them good or bad. Sometimes I know I did a crappy job, but at others I look at this semester and the demands it put on me and realize that although I didn't do the best with programs or bulletin boards that I did have an excellent personal relationship with a good majority of the residents.
So onto the summer and plans for the next few weeks. I go to Chicago next weekend for the NRA show. I'll be meeting a manager for Sweet Tomatoes - a restaurant in St. Louis. Then its work work work and work till the first half of July then its to Clinton for Olde Glory Days, then Denver then a day or two of work and then Virgina then its back to work and work.
So I've met my roommates, Angie and Alisha. They seem pretty nice and I'm hoping we get along over this summer. I've got most of my stuff moved in, but there's a few things left in Stafford. I'll get those moved out soon enough and then I'll be a Southsider for the next year and a few months.
Well I'm waiting for someone to come down so I can check them out but until then I'm just chillin out down at Pershing, so until then! |
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| Hmm...where to begin |
[May. 3rd, 2004|12:16 am] |
I just caught the tail end of American Beauty tonight and after the movie ended, there was silence in the room for a few minutes....it was rather completely strange. So I got to pondering that movie - at the end, it talks about how beauty is all around us, we just need to open ourselves to it. We can't grab and hold it, but need to let it flow through us, just like rain.
I'm talking about that inner beauty, true beauty, not just that superficial crap. And as corny as it sounds I see it all over the place. I don't want to list them here - for a few reasons, but I think of each as a little nugget of something special and keep them inside.
Last week of classes and I'm trying to write my 391 paper...have all semester and wait till the end, who's the procrastinator? |
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| Mottos and Summer Plans |
[May. 2nd, 2004|04:18 pm] |
I just came from the Student Staff banquet that was for well, student staff today. During the presentation a few of my role models were recognized for their hard-work, dedication and excellence. One of the winners was a graudate from Clinton HS, who was my first trainer at McD's and who I have always seen as not only a leader, but a leader full of enthusasm. Her motto, which they read was "Expect less, do More." That for some reason really hit home. I wish I would've had that in my head this semester, I really do because I've expected less and have done even less than that.
I'm slowly slipping into a slump, I'm exhausted from work, have to much to do this week plus I gotta get my 391 paper done before Friday because I'm headed out for the weekend with some of the guys. Its all work until like next Monday night, then I'm done with finals and very very very little to do.
So now I need to look at the summer. Well I'm moving into Kim's place over in the South part of town (Columbia) for the summer. I'll be like 3 minutes from Seth's place which is pretty nice and hopefully the duplex I'll be living it will be ours in the fall. I've got travel plans to Chicago in May, Denver and then Virginia in July. Hopefully I'll be rakin in the cash this summer working at McD's both campus and probably Stadium too some so I"ll be getting so major paychecks in.
Well I'm off to get something to eat before E-board, then E-board transitions. |
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| Tradition |
[Apr. 17th, 2004|06:02 pm] |
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For the past few hours I've been out on the quad, sitting on the columns, reading, studying, relaxing, enjoying the beautiful day. Its my first time out here this spring, and it reminds me of just how much I've missed it. Friday was Tap Day, one of the very few ceremonies held on the quad itself, and it was fun to see people I know, people I respect, honored by the University and by those who are their peers in leadership, service and love of the University. I hope next year, I will be up there on Tap Day, hidden under one of those huge robes and hoods and able to say that I earned that great honor.
The bells just played, both from Memorial Union and from the Alumni center, and the sense of tradition is just overwhelming. For decades, countless numbers of students have done what I've done, for many years they've heard the same bells, walked the same paths and lived in the same halls. Its time like this, right here and now that I am glad to be part of a University with such a rich history and that it celebrates it with its rich and meaningful traditions.
Go Mizzou!!!! |
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| Alright, another major update |
[Apr. 15th, 2004|01:17 am] |
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Ok, so whats been going on since Spring Break? Ha, a lot of stuff but I've forgotten a lot of it already. Let see what I can remember though.
April Fool's day sucked - I fell for a bad joke that Bill did, felt like my teachers wasted my time in both my classes, wasted the afternoon doing inventory and making menus - something that totally spent like an hour but took way to long, and I backed into a friggin camaro - thats right, a camaro. $1200 bucks for a new door....good thing I got my credit cards paid off.
The third was PSP induction, which was awesome! I am so happy to have all the new Brothers! The party afterwards was intersting, I was trying to get some points, but got a big whooping 0, oh well it was fun. Poor Jack was hammered, he peed on the Hitt St. dumpster and Matt and Jon took him back to his dorm. I tried to go to Relay for Life and then we went and got my car. All in all it was an awesome day/night.
The 6th was my meal. It went pretty good except cleanup took forever. We had to comp a $140 meal, lost 19 napkins which is close to a $100 and didn't get out until a little after 2. I had some major issues with a few people, cause they slacked off hard-core. I love how they turned it around for their meal though...to bad their meal sucked more than ours did, haha. I was elected Parliamentarian for PSP next year, WOO for me on a happy note!
This past Tuesday my team got to eat at the meal. That was fun, had my first taste of wine - not to big on it, but maybe it'll grow on me? I ended up staying way later at the after dinner festivities than I wanted, but it was all fun I suppose, but I was exhausted. I didn't wake up till 1 today, which sucks because I wanted to go to Marketing.
So yeah, like 3 weeks left of classes, and I'm going to study my ass off for all of it. My econ grade is by far the worst I've ever had - could it be its an 8 am on Wednesday and I have trouble getting up after working in 235 for like I dunno 14-18 hours on Tuesday? Still no excuse, I'm hoping to nail the final so I can get up into the B range. Lets just say, I hate inflation.
Oh, I also found out that I do get to go to Chicago for the NRA Salute to Excellence! That means I am travelling a lot this summer. Chicago in May, Denver in July, perhaps San Fran in August to go see JB and Kristy. This coming weekend too, I'm going to IU to see Matt and then Evansville to see Jessi. I need some road time to myself to relax some, and it'll be tons of fun.
On a more reflective thought, currently I feel out of whack, kinda off balanced. I'm working on trying to figure something out to help me get back to a more centered state I suppose. |
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| Time Ticks By |
[Mar. 24th, 2004|12:06 am] |
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Well, massive posting update.
Spring Break started this past weekend. I went home to Clinton. It was a pleasant surprise, perhaps I was ready to get out of school for awhile, but it was nice. I spent some time with quite a few people. Zack, John Crowder, John Jennex, and Danny and I had coffee for two of the three nights I was down. We also had breakfast at Crowder's house a few times too...he's quite the cook! I spent some time with Danielle too. It was good to see her again and get caught up on whats been going on. We drove around a lot and talked a lot, but it was relaxing. I miss being able to spend lots of time with her. Finally I ended up spending some time with Meghean. I'm trying to convince her to bring everyone she knows to my dinner. We need the reservations. She got a new car, its a Spyder, moving on up from a Bug, haha.
Then I got to come back to school. I'm enjoying the time off from folks, though I feel somewhat rushed. I'm here for Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday then I have to go to Jeff City for PBL competition. I'm not to worried about that, but between work and trying to get everything settled, I'm afraid I'll forget something important.
Our second edition to the pre-meal packet is due on the 1st...not a lot of time to work with, especially with break but I am planning on helping Kim out with it some. The next dinner I get to be a host, so I get all dressed up and relax for once. It's gonna be fun times, and then its our turn, joy joy.
I finished book 8 of Wheel of Time and have started book 9. I also got New Spring and a book called Archangel by a new author. I've been wanting to work on characters and writing some, but I'm just to busy it seems. I was doing decent on reading up on the Bible, but now thats come to a screaching halt as have a lot of my "hobbies."
I'm so tired...so exhausted it seems. I really wish I didn't have to work tomorrow. The initiates to the test on Sunday, then we vote on Tuesday. I hope they all make it, they have worked hard on it. Everything seems to be going at a blur, but it hasn't even started yet. I need to breathe and just relax..perhaps sleep will make everything better.
Also, on a side-note, its come to my attention that some folks have read entries that may be deemed "offensive." Not offensive due to the graphic nature, but because it deals with them in particular. I vent on this thing folks, but a lot of what I say is what I really mean, sometimes its exaggerated, but sometimes its not. When I vent I don't think about who might be hurt by what I say and to those of you whom I don't mean to offend, I'm sorry. Some of you though....some of you deserve the new asshole I'm tearing you whether you want to believe it or not. My feelings are MINE, yours are yours. Obviously you don't care about others feelings so why start worrying about mine. If you ever have questions about which category you fall into, just ask. IF you're not sure though, that should be a pretty good idea that its an exaggerated vent session and not deep rooted feelings.
I need to remember to keep true to myself, to the goals and aspirations I have set forth for myself. I will change into the person I want to be, no matter how hard some try to hold me back. This is my declaration of freedom from the cynics, the passion killers, and from those who only wish to degrade me for their temporary gains. Simply put, if you don't like me stay away. If you don't want to contribute something useful to my life or even to draw something useful from me into your life, then stay away. I do not have to put up with other people's crap and I will not. |
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